@thatlavendersis Instagram caption turned blogpost| Growth*Healing & Neurodivergence
Omg. Hi y’all.
Funny story, I couldn’t figure out how to get back into this acct lmao. Such a weird trippy complex instagram glitch/not a glitch? Anyway
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This is a post about growth. This is a post about the waiting game being worth it when you commit to loving self and healing!
My past self was, lovingly, all over the place -mentally and thus organizationally in life, (great chick, love ha to death), but she was unorganized as all heck. No routine! Just vibes haha.
And Vibes are fleeting- and not always grounded. This season I have committed to cultivating routine and organization in different ways into my life. Order and discipline is necessary for a very busy , excitable, easily distracted, energetic mind, that has an empathic heart to pair, like mine …especially in our society and culture.
This season I have grown to love myself wholly ,and work to continuously accept and embrace my neurodivergence .
Understanding how our minds work and thus our body and behavior / (what makes us, ‘us’ ; and further what helps us to function well in any given situation or environment, is crucial.
How do you help yourself function , be productive , or assume your necessary role ? For example when you’re at work? Vs when you’re playing with your nephew?
I asked myself these questions and leaned in/ indulged into tools / my passions (ex.writing/ journaling/ movement-dancing ) to help me function well; and to help me be as prepared as possible and present for any potential situation, environment or dynamic.
Western Pathology does a fantastic job of convincing folks that we all should function/ think/ act/ behave in one particular way- anything else is not ‘normal’…. and thus should be ‘fixed’ usually with medication.
@wokescientist recently wrote a post surrounding the harmful impacts of psych medications.
One day recently, someone had, in a very random ,one-off conversation, suggested I try Ritalin. They expressed how they perceived from my behaviors , that I probably have ADHD (like them). They suggested, more so told me “I should think about trying/taking Ritalin as it will help me focus more and calm down”.
Folks who have been conditioned by western pathology, medicine and theory, are quick to unconsciously perpetuate the unhealthy idea that when challenging qualities of neurodivergence appear, it is a problem/ an issue. One that can and should be fixed with medication.
Practitioners of western medicine are quick to medicate to curb a challenge quality -(short attention span, distract-ability , procrastination). Doctors, psychiatrists and psychologists do this with a deep and intimate understanding that an individual’s mind is unique and varies person to person based on many factors and variables .
They also intimately understand how trauma, risk factors,genetic traits , physical environment significantly compound that fact. Further, they understand how these variables can translate into behavior, and further manifest through perceived focus, and hyper-ness-energy expression. With all this incredible research and understanding of the mind and body, scientists, doctors, and psychiatrists alike for reasons I wont expand on in this post , choose to employ health plans and prescriptions that work to make an individual’s mind and thus behavior conform to one standard of functioning and expression.
We do not often if ever see medical institutions as well as education systems work to understand and inquire on neurodivergence as a human trait -versus only a biological chemical imbalance and a negative biological chemical imbalance at that.
Since further radicalizing my mindset on western pathology, indigenous practices and history, human expression, and mental health -I have leaned heavily into indigenous and holistic self care and healing.
I dance, practice yoga, (movement, energy release ) , journal (reflection/energy/emotional release ), write/create poetry and digital art (expression ,acts of joy and happiness) to curb and lessen the “challenging and problematic qualities”. These qualities for me can look like short attention span, procrastination, being easily distractible/excitable, and exude high energy or be ‘too’ hyper.
This season of my life and in my healing journey have and continue to teach, and remind me that when I work to not only understand; but accept and fully embrace how my beautiful, unique mind works- and listen to my mind, heart, soul and body on resting, or releasing energy, or processing , through various expressions and practices — I am able to function, and function well. I am able to be productive when necessary, light and goofy , and focused when necessary , and most importantly be present and in the moment and simply thrive!
This started out as a post showcasing my beautiful journals and my growth in staying consistent with routine, organization and planning. It ended up being a reflection for me on @thewokescientist ‘s post and further on my ability to improve naturally on my challenging traits, one’s that used to drive me into anxious spirals and bouts of imposter syndrome, and bouts and thoughts of worthlessness. I take a heavy breath with that, as I never imagined seeing this version of myself prospering, happy, healthy and thriving !
Happy 2’sday on a Wednesday yall. And remember to stay groovy and on the up lovely ppl 🤞🏿💫.
-@thatpoeticsis
